Senior Year

Man! two months have gone by since I last posted. My chops are feeling pretty good. I auditioned for the all state jazz band the other week and it went terrible, I also auditioned for the Grammy jazz band and it went pretty well but it could of been better. I have started a jazz combo at school and they are developing slowly, but it's still a working progress. Marching band is almost over and although I don't like it I'm starting to realize that once it's all over I won't see all the friends that I've made and that I'll miss them.

It's been a crazy year and it's going by fast. This whole college thing is starting to get to me. I have so many different people pulling me toward a different direction that it's driving me crazy.

I had the blues really bad last night. I really don't know why. But last night was my last football game performance and I started to think: "what if after high school is over I don't ever get to play music ever again".. and I really wanted to cry because of just a thought... I really don't know what I would do if I can't ever play music again.. I'd probably go crazy.

The older I get the more i realize how important music is to me and how attached I've gotten to it threw out the years. Whenever I'm feeling down i can always turn to music to release some of those emotions out.

Hopefully everything will turn out well for me, but right now I'm just thinking about the future and it's pretty scary.