Today was the All County Band Audition. It was not my best audition, but it wasn't my worse either. My tone was fuzzy and I almost missed a couple of notes and I almost cracked some notes. My scales were perfect. My sight reading killed me. I'm afraid that it's going to make the difference between me getting 1st or 2nd. Well whatever happens happens. Right now I'm real motivated to move on and hopefully take my playing up to another level. To me it doesn't really matter if I get 1st chair or not. I just want to play. Sure it'd be nice to get 1st again but if I don't maybe it's for a reason. Maybe it will be good for me. Maybe I'll learn how to back up from lead and learn new skills of a section trumpet player. Maybe this will give me the aggression and hunger to be better that I need. Who knows.. Only time will tell.